unapologetically spicy smores brownies

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with a flash and bang, summer is gone. it wasn’t even a gradual transition, no gentle fade-out-of-summer-fade-into-fall. no. mother nature is unmerciful sometimes and i swear, once it struck midnight on september 1st, 2016, there was a distinct chill in the air again. a sharpness that only comes in autumn. clouded skies. early sunsets. emails in our inboxes about PSLs. (shut up starbucks im not ready yet).

i’ve mentioned it before, but i like to find meaning in everything. be it a chance event, interaction(s) with someone, a scene you see as you’re driving, a photo you’ve taken. making the insignificant significant. yes it can be dangerous, but it’s human nature. sometimes it’s out of necessity, sometimes it’s just for fun, and sometimes you’re just bored and it’s an exercise for the mind.

in this case… these brownies have a few meanings.

  • one.) they capture the essence of summer. smores is a quintessential campfire treat, and the cayenne pepper is the fire that forever burns.
  • two.) it represents the complexity of  life and the “there’s more than meets the eye” situations… brownies are so, so indulgent, but if you look closely, there are chia seeds. the metaphorical good in every situation. it just depends on your perspective.
  • three.) i’ve always been intrigued by Mexican mole sauce and the pairing between chocolate and chili (and cinnamon!) and wanted to work it into my baking.
  • four.) maybe i just really wanted to make people eat something disgusting but make them think i intended it to taste good.

kidding about the last one. you guys know my sense of humour.

or am i.

i saw this post on ladyandpups where she puts grated white cheddar on top of a sponge cake, and while i’m all for crazy combinations (peanut butter & fried egg sandwich with a dash of soy sauce is srsly AMAZING) sometimes i wonder if sometimes chefs randomly pairs two different ingredients, perhaps with a random generator, then proceeds to hipsterfy it through a myriad of different techniques, obscure sourcing of ingredients, abstract plating, coming up with a meaning behind it… and then SERVES IT TO US and we patrons are like YES MHM AHH THIS TASTES VERY GOOD HOW INNOVATIVE FIVE STARS FOR YOU.

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Strawberry Rhubarb Rosewater Cake

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hello m’dears,

i’m back with a cake! this time it’s … actually a belated birthday cake. as per tradition, i make my own birthday cake :) because really i just need an excuse to make a cake.

birthdays are funny. the whole concept of it. to some it’s a significant day, a reason to celebrate with friends and family… and to others it’s just another day. which is also great, because it is an arbitrary day. i feel like it’s always important to be cognizant and reflective of where you’re at in life. and be consciously grateful to be living life.

i think at 21, i’m not where i want to be. or rather, i’m not who i think i should be. and this is not a novel idea… i think the twenties, for most people, is a time to just figure it all out. if life can be figured out in the first place.

and so that’s my question, how do you reconcile that, living with that divide between who you think you should be or imagine yourself to be, vs. who you actually are?

but if there’s one thing that is certain, it’s change. from dan gilbert–

“human beings are works in progress that mistakenly think they’re finished.
the person you are right now is as transient, as fleeting and as temporary as all the people you’ve ever been. the one constant in our life, is change.”

ANYWAYS. can i just say though, that this cake is also a reflection of all those feelings? a i don’t know how this is going to turn out but i’m figuring it out sort of cake.

that’s a pretty great title for a cake, actually. if i ever open a bakery, all of the names will be super ramble-y and emotionally charged. the stop tailgating me im already 20 over leave your house earlier blueberry coconut glazed scone. the i wish i knew what you were thinking chocolate chip banana bread. the it’s 1am let’s do laundry and wash dishes oatmeal peanut butter cookie.

BUT I DIGRESS– let’s get into this cake.

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matcha strawberry cream puffs

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HELLO FOLKS of the internet. where has july gone?! the days all rolled into one and suddenly it’s august and we’re left with only. 3. weeks. left of summer. tragic.

the thought of matcha cream puffs was pinned in the back of my brain from one of those random videos that show up on your fb feed. and it’s one of those rare times that they’re actually relevant to you… like a short clip of nothing but a close-up of someone’s hands bursting open matcha cream puffs, shot in different angles, to show all its luscious glory.

so despite there being plenty of other things on my “to bake” list, such as brooks headley’s chocolate & eggplant dessert,  and many flavour combinations brainstormed: earl grey tea caramelized white chocolate, lavender & apricot, pistachio & raspberry– i somehow always fall back onto matcha.

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nutella-stuffed matcha oatmeal cookies

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hello hello!

it’s been too long. the paradox of time is that it can fly by, yet my carrot cake post seemed like an eternity ago, not 3 months. but the good news is, over the course of the next few weeks i will be posting lots and lots of travel-related foodie posts in various European cities :))))

for now, i present you this cookie.

the title is not an entirely accurate name of the cookie… i have issues with brevity. a truer name would be nutella-stuffed matcha oatmeal cookies with raspberries with a slightly smores-y feel due to the addition of marshmallows & graham crackers 

but i can’t imagine that catching on.

this creation came about because of something i’ve never done before–making a stuffed cookie. i also had this idea in my head of wanting something well balanced in flavours (sweet and bitter and tart), balanced in textures (creamy, crunchy, gooey, soft & chewy), plus something that i would want to eat and wouldn’t be able to find anywhere else. oh, and something that’s not super-duper decadent (hence the addition of oats) so you wouldn’t feel too guilty.

so this cookie was born!

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Carrot Cake

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happy easter, everyone! hope everyone got a chance to enjoy the sunshine… the feeling of spring is unmistakable– the warmth of the sun, the crisp breeze, the delicate blossoms. everything just feels so vibrant and alive🙂

i honestly didn’t know why carrot cake + easter just goes hand in hand… because bunnies like carrots? do they actually? can anyone like carrots?

while i was googling, the related searches were:

  • does carrot cake have carrots in it
  • is there carrots in carrot cake
  • why is carrot cake called carrot cake
  • carrot cake fun facts
  • carrot cake description on menu
  • what does carrot cake taste like

wow. i didn’t know carrot cake could be such a mysterious creature.

don’t fear, guys, the answers to all these google inquiries will all be taken care of, once you take a bite out of this carrot cake🙂

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