Strawberry Rhubarb Rosewater Cake

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hello m’dears,

i’m back with a cake! this time it’s … actually a belated birthday cake. as per tradition, i make my own birthday cake¬†ūüôā because really i just need an excuse to make a cake.

birthdays are funny. the whole concept of it. to some it’s a significant day, a reason to celebrate with friends and family… and to others it’s just another day. which is also great, because it is an¬†arbitrary day. i feel like¬†it’s¬†always¬†important to be cognizant and reflective of where you’re at in life. and be consciously grateful to be living life.

i think at 21, i’m not where i want to be. or rather, i’m not who i think i should be. and this is not a novel idea… i think the twenties, for most people, is a time to just figure it all out. if life can be figured out in the first place.

and so that’s my question, how do you reconcile that, living with that divide between who you think you should be or imagine yourself to be, vs. who you actually are?

but if there’s one thing that is certain, it’s change. from dan gilbert–

“human beings are works in progress that mistakenly think they’re finished.
the person you are right now is as transient, as fleeting and as temporary as all the people you’ve ever been. the one constant in our life, is change.”

ANYWAYS. can i just say though, that this cake is also a reflection of all those feelings? a¬†i don’t know how this is going to turn out but i’m figuring it out sort of cake.

that’s a pretty great title for a cake, actually. if i ever open a bakery, all of the names will be super ramble-y and emotionally charged. the¬†stop tailgating me im already 20 over leave your house earlier¬†blueberry coconut glazed scone. the¬†i¬†wish i knew what you were thinking¬†chocolate chip banana bread. the¬†it’s 1am let’s do laundry and wash dishes oatmeal peanut butter cookie.

BUT I DIGRESS– let’s get into this cake.

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matcha strawberry cream puffs

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HELLO FOLKS of the internet. where has july gone?! the days all rolled into one and suddenly it’s august and we’re left with only. 3. weeks. left of summer. tragic.

the thought of matcha cream puffs was¬†pinned¬†in the back of my brain¬†from¬†one of those random¬†videos that show up on your fb feed. and it’s one of those rare times that they’re actually relevant to you…¬†like a short clip of nothing but a close-up of someone’s hands bursting open matcha cream puffs, shot in different angles, to show all its luscious glory.

so despite there being plenty of other things on my “to bake” list, such as¬†brooks headley’s chocolate & eggplant dessert, ¬†and many flavour combinations brainstormed:¬†earl grey tea caramelized¬†white chocolate,¬†lavender & apricot, pistachio & raspberry– i somehow always fall back onto matcha.

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