Strawberry Rhubarb Rosewater Cake

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hello m’dears,

i’m back with a cake! this time it’s … actually a belated birthday cake. as per tradition, i make my own birthday cake¬†ūüôā because really i just need an excuse to make a cake.

birthdays are funny. the whole concept of it. to some it’s a significant day, a reason to celebrate with friends and family… and to others it’s just another day. which is also great, because it is an¬†arbitrary day. i feel like¬†it’s¬†always¬†important to be cognizant and reflective of where you’re at in life. and be consciously grateful to be living life.

i think at 21, i’m not where i want to be. or rather, i’m not who i think i should be. and this is not a novel idea… i think the twenties, for most people, is a time to just figure it all out. if life can be figured out in the first place.

and so that’s my question, how do you reconcile that, living with that divide between who you think you should be or imagine yourself to be, vs. who you actually are?

but if there’s one thing that is certain, it’s change. from dan gilbert–

“human beings are works in progress that mistakenly think they’re finished.
the person you are right now is as transient, as fleeting and as temporary as all the people you’ve ever been. the one constant in our life, is change.”

ANYWAYS. can i just say though, that this cake is also a reflection of all those feelings? a¬†i don’t know how this is going to turn out but i’m figuring it out sort of cake.

that’s a pretty great title for a cake, actually. if i ever open a bakery, all of the names will be super ramble-y and emotionally charged. the¬†stop tailgating me im already 20 over leave your house earlier¬†blueberry coconut glazed scone. the¬†i¬†wish i knew what you were thinking¬†chocolate chip banana bread. the¬†it’s 1am let’s do laundry and wash dishes oatmeal peanut butter cookie.

BUT I DIGRESS– let’s get into this cake.

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matcha strawberry cream puffs

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HELLO FOLKS of the internet. where has july gone?! the days all rolled into one and suddenly it’s august and we’re left with only. 3. weeks. left of summer. tragic.

the thought of matcha cream puffs was¬†pinned¬†in the back of my brain¬†from¬†one of those random¬†videos that show up on your fb feed. and it’s one of those rare times that they’re actually relevant to you…¬†like a short clip of nothing but a close-up of someone’s hands bursting open matcha cream puffs, shot in different angles, to show all its luscious glory.

so despite there being plenty of other things on my “to bake” list, such as¬†brooks headley’s chocolate & eggplant dessert, ¬†and many flavour combinations brainstormed:¬†earl grey tea caramelized¬†white chocolate,¬†lavender & apricot, pistachio & raspberry– i somehow always fall back onto matcha.

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Coconut Matcha Marble Cakelettes

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Every time I intend to make something out of my comfort zone / something crazy creative it ends up being quite normal– like these, haha. Then again if it’s too crazy creative it can blur into being gimmicky.¬†¬†We’ll give it a week, I’ll think of something… actually, I finally got around to checking out Alice Medrich’s Flavor Flours and Dominique Ansel’s book, can’t wait to¬†immerse myself in that.

So it’s reading break, and for me that means getting “life stuff” done. Stuff that I usually shove to a corner in my mind. Like my class 5 test, and uh mm yeah well uh hm I didn’t pass, haha. The examiner was the same lady who passed me for my N, and I was feeling relaxed/hopeful. A bit too relaxed, because about 20 minutes in I forgot to mind the speed limit (50km/h…. who actually drives that speed like pls) because we were about to go on the highway and I was thinking¬†omg we’re going on the highway I haven’t failed yet!! which is the ultimate irony because that was the moment when I sped up to keep up with traffic and yeah it was game over at that point. Also in my defense it was downhill, ok.

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Ultimate Oatmeal Cookies

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Hi guys!

Every time I write a blog post I feel compelled to say “I’M BACK!!” as if I was on a long hiatus and that I really should’ve been blogging like every week. In an ideal world I’d be able to do it every day. I recovered from a horrid mystery stomach flu (or what I guessed it to be) last week, which left me feeling completely sucked out of energy, it was the weirdest feeling. Like I slept 9 hours the night before, and I passed out at 6pm for an hour, then I went to bed two hours after I woke up from that nap. Never in my life had I ever felt so energy drained, and it was pretty frightening to me thinking that for some people, maybe that is what their energy level is… and it won’t ever reach back to 100%…it just really made me appreciate my two legs and feeling back to normal.

Lately I’ve been trying to incorporate small things in my life to, I don’t know, improve my quality of living. Compounded habits, I think they call it? So it’s a bunch of small things like being more appreciative/practicing gratitude, being more active and exercising, being more creative and¬†creating…¬† Continue reading →

Cranberry Pumpkin Gingerbread Muffins

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Okay, not going to lie, I was hoping I’d end 2015 with a bang or at least make some celebratory Christmassy fancy holiday chestnut buche de noel (I even have the heavy cream sitting in my fridge), but instead I present you guys with some more boring muffins, my specialty, haha……..

I do have a good reason though, I have a special friend whom I met briefly while interning/volunteering last summer, and even though we traveled together¬†for two or three days, we really connected well and life has a funny way of bringing people back together again. Anyway, she stopped by Vancouver after her exchange over in New Brunswick (lol) was finished, and it’s been a really action packed week, as it’s got to be when you’re trying to show someone the highlights of your home city.

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